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On coming home
Mar. 10th, 2011 06:54 amI've been having some odd feelings about the idea of moving back to the United States.
On the one of the things that's become incredibly clear since I moved here is that I can't live this far away from my family. I miss them so much that sometimes it makes me feel like I'm missing a part of who I am. I miss that I cannot simply pick up a phone after a long day and call my mom. I miss going to see movies with my dad. I miss being able to talk to my younger brother as friends and as people who've seen the very worst of it together.
I also miss a lot of things about living in the states. The food, the language, the fact that I understand how life works there. I understand how to pay a bill and take a bus and talk to someone on the phone.
On the other hand, I also feel a little like the sky is always falling when I live in the states. I'm a teacher, and I love teaching, but part of being a teacher is the idea that I will be compensated for it. If not now, then when I retire. The fact that states are actively looking for ways to take away that compensation makes me nervous.
There still aren't a lot of districts hiring teachers in the US. The job rate is still really down. Moreover, the Tea Party scares me. A lot. If this active move towards anti-intellectualism continues, I'm not sure that I want to live in that US. I don't like the vicious way that parties attack each other or the fact that Republicans seem to be pursuing goals which are so far from what I believe that I wonder how they can agree this is the "right" way to live.
I have a job here. I am making not good money, but not bad money either. I am learning to live here.
On the other hand, I really want to come home.
On the one of the things that's become incredibly clear since I moved here is that I can't live this far away from my family. I miss them so much that sometimes it makes me feel like I'm missing a part of who I am. I miss that I cannot simply pick up a phone after a long day and call my mom. I miss going to see movies with my dad. I miss being able to talk to my younger brother as friends and as people who've seen the very worst of it together.
I also miss a lot of things about living in the states. The food, the language, the fact that I understand how life works there. I understand how to pay a bill and take a bus and talk to someone on the phone.
On the other hand, I also feel a little like the sky is always falling when I live in the states. I'm a teacher, and I love teaching, but part of being a teacher is the idea that I will be compensated for it. If not now, then when I retire. The fact that states are actively looking for ways to take away that compensation makes me nervous.
There still aren't a lot of districts hiring teachers in the US. The job rate is still really down. Moreover, the Tea Party scares me. A lot. If this active move towards anti-intellectualism continues, I'm not sure that I want to live in that US. I don't like the vicious way that parties attack each other or the fact that Republicans seem to be pursuing goals which are so far from what I believe that I wonder how they can agree this is the "right" way to live.
I have a job here. I am making not good money, but not bad money either. I am learning to live here.
On the other hand, I really want to come home.
